I almost forgot, Make-up World forgot to post my testimonial for their marvelous "Terrorist" Mask, so we're going to have to create a mock-up here:



Give them a hand folks!
6:48 AM

I feel like updating, but I don't really have a real update in my, so I'll settle for an LJish detailing of things

One is that Mina Mina Wolverina has been borne of my aunt today. We expect great things of her, like mutant regenerative powers.

Two, I added a link to my old website today. This was when the web was just starting to enter the main stream and every little town or what not was getting its own website, so I figured I would provide one for Atlantis. There's an extraordinarily detailed back story with fighting factions and made-up words, and to truly earn my geocities cred I made the design choice of Cosmet Cursors. Do NOT sign up for that, they're an evil service. I would change it but I like that site as it is. Oh and read the news backwards would be my recommendation. Read the History first, then the news, would be even better. And maybe the glossary. I guess I felt websites should be spread out, so you really have to go to every part for it to make much sense.

Three, Zatoichi was a great man. In the land of the sighted the no eyed man is king.

Four, looking over number one, did you know that born is the past tense of bear? It makes perfect sense when you think about it, but because you learn the words seperately you usually don't think of it like that.

Five, I'm going to a Sufi school thing on Friday with Marika. I'm not sure what will happen, but I expect great things, like mutant regenerative powers.

Six, I have found great joy in the Sabriel/Lireal/Abhorsen series. Ginnie recommended these to me way back in 10th grade, and then Kate again in 12th, and I've read other stuff about them, but it just took me quite a while. Then the other day the internet was out and I'd read all my books and I was upstairs crying and Rachel took pity on me and said, here, read this. And it was Lireal and it was wonderful and it was great.

Seven, I mean past tense of the verb bear, not like some dead bear.

Eight, I said this in the comments of it, but the Rumi post the other day was not written under the influence of any curry. I was just in a really good mood after reading some really good poetry. And whenever I'm really cheerful I'm also very nihilistic. Nihilists make better lovers.

Nine, Bush is a punk ass chump.


Love,
Alex
3:39 AM

Usually I hate taking little quizzes (I had a whole post about it, with art and everything, but I'm too lazy to go find it), especially when I'm at my parents house and I've gotten very little sleep (I actually managed to fall asleep while being dentistized). But! Samia has found a nice little quiz and managed to fill out everything exactly right because she is Supergirl, so I figured I would take it too:

01. Buy everyone in the pub a drink - no, I've never even bought a drink for myself in a pub
02. Swim with wild dolphins - sadly no but I did play games with some domestic ones once
03. Climb a Mountain - I have planted my flag on many mountains
04. Take a Ferrari for a test drive - nope
05. See the Pyramids at night - Argy made a Beeramid the other day. That's almost as majestic
06. Hold a tarantula - Yeah, that was neat
07. Take a candlelit bath with someone - taking baths with other people seems like one of those ideas that SOUNDS really great but just goes laughably bad.
08. Say 'I love you' and mean it - Yes!
09. Hug a tree - Hasn't everyone?
10. Do a striptease - omg
11. Do a bungee or parachute jump - omg
12. Visit Paris- sadly
13. Watch a lightning storm at sea - I've seen lightening storms over the sea, yeah
14. Clean behind the fridge - I've sort of picked behind it before. It wasn't very pleasant
15. Stay up all night long, and watch the sun rise - the first all the time (like, last night), but the latter I've never sat down and made my sole activity, no
16. Ask the/a question you've always been too embarrassed to ask. - I have to imagine so, but for the life of me I can't think of one off hand
17. See the Northern Lights - I've seen pictures!
18. Go to a huge sports game - yeah. That wouldn't be my anser if the question was 'Enjoyed a huge sports game' though.
19. Create your own masterpiece - I call him Alex
20. Grow and eat your own vegetables. Yes, tomatos with my parents. (I left Samia's answer but I've done this too)
21. Touch an iceberg - I've never even seen one. Isn't that sad?
22. Have an office relationship - sure, I've had relationships with people in offices. friends, acquaintances, bosses, you name it.
23. Sleep under the stars - well every night, but I guess they mean with no intermediaries, in which case I don't think I have, no
24. Compromise - short for 'Communist Promise', no, I am an American and will fight the Bolsheviks to the last man
25. Change a baby's nappy/diaper - alas
26. Take a rip in a hot air balloon - I'm not sure what this means, but no, no I haven't
27. Watch a meteor shower - Yah!
28. Get drunk on champagne - heh, I've gotten drunk on Sangria...that was good stuff
29. Take a luxury holiday - I'm not real sure what this means, but sure, yeah
30. Give more than you can afford to charity - No
31. Look up at the night sky through a telescope - why yes
32. Have an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment - I've had the former, but never really the worst possible moment. Unlike Mary Tyler Moore. That was a good episode
33. Have a food fight - well of course. I can't believe you said no Samia. Next time I see you I'm going to have to throw an orange at you.
34. Bet on a winning horse - i'm not a betting woman
35. Take a sick day when you're not ill - Oh yeah all the time in school
36. Get a pet - never all by myself, my parents have always been involved, but I've had plenty in my day
37. Ask a stranger out - Armed with my stunning powers of ultra-shyness, I've actually managed to avoid ever asking anyone out.
38. Have a snowball fight - Yeah though other people are always weiners and give up
39. Photocopy your bottom on the office photocopier - not yet, but someday, someday
40. Scream as loudly as you possibly can - Yee-hah!
41. Hold a lamb - In like petting zoos, yeah
42. Enact a favorite fantasy - I don't think so, but I don't think I have a favourite fantasy...I'm a very imaginative person
43. Take a midnight skinny dip - No I'm not a skinny-dipper in general. I'm not a fan of selective nudity, really.
44. Hear the words 'I love you' - Yes!
45. Fly on Concorde - No
46. Take an ice cold bath - Heh, yeah
47. Have a meaningful conversation with a beggar. - Not really meaningful, no...I'm just not quick enough to deal with beggars, or strangers in general.
48. See a total eclipse - Yeah, at least twice
49. Ride a roller coaster - I've even had fun doing this, though not too frequently
50. Hit a home run - Not to the best of my recollection
51. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days - Yeah man I have beat multiple video games that would take a lesser man WEEKS if not MONTHS to do in a few hardcore days
52. Dance like a fool and not care who's looking - I've danced like a fool, but only when I know I'm with friendly peoples or my sister
53. Adopt an accent for an entire day - No, but why not?
54. Visit the birthplace of you ancestors - Texas?
55. Have a grand romance with costumes and everything - I'm not actually sure what you mean, Quiz, but I'm going to assume no. But that doesn't mean I don't want to
56. Made up a screenname to stalk someone. - Nope, nothing but Tsrhynamio. When I want to check on someone I'll steal Bob's account real quick
57. Gone shopping for no reason. - I hardly ever go shopping even when I have a reason, lord but I hate shopping
58. Actually feel happy about your life, even for just a moment. - Yes!
59. Just be held - Yes!
60. Have an adventure where nothing goes as planned. - Yes!
61. Kissed someone you truly wanted to kiss - Yes!
62. Went clubbing and thought to yourself "I could out-dance them if I wanted to" - Yes! oh wait no that thought has never crossed my mind
63. Called your relatives by their relationship in another language - Tja
64. Have two hard drives for your computer - l33t m I
65. Cuddled - I had a teddy bear until at least 10th grade. I wonder what ever happened to him
66. Visited all 50 states - Nope
67. Love your job - It was never really love, but I've liked both jobs I've had. But I prefer not working
68. Taken care of someone who was shit faced - Oh yeah I've been on both sides of that equation, though much more the taking care side than the being taken care of one
69. Had enough money to be truly satisfied - money doesn't give true satisfaction.
70. Have amazing friends - God my friends rock
71. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country - I have never even danced with a stranger
72. Swim during a formal - I don't know what you mean
73. Stolen a sign - YES recently I've been stealing the real estate signs that are everywhere and taking the sticks they're built upon
74. Backpacked in Europe - Not in the way you mean, but I've walked miles with a backpack in Europe
75. Taken a road-trip - Sure
76. Rock climbing - I was in a rock climbing camp! It was fun. Not really a camp though
77. Nose piercing - this seems like it would be such a horrible idea
78. Midnight walk on the beach - Yah, yah
79. Sky diving - omg
80. Visit Ireland - I don't trust Irish
81. Saw what you wanted and did all it took to seize it. - yeah but never with anything of consequence
82. Fell in love then fell harder and faster from heartbreak. - Nope, not really.
83. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had lunch/dinner with them - who does this?
84. Visit and/or tour Japan. - No, nor do I really want to, though not as vehemently as I once did
85. Benchpress your own weight. - I'm gonna need a scale that reads too low and weights that read too high
86. Stolen from your parents - um, you know, change here and there, maybe I didn't spend just all the gas money on gas a few times, that sort of thing. Never anything real.
87. Alphabatized your records/ cd - ...no
89. Pretended to be a superhero - I've never pretended to be a superhero
90. Sang karaoke - No, happily.
91. Made someone cry for no good reason - damnit they deserved it
92. Lounged around in bed all day. - not all day
93. Posed nude in front of a room full of strangers. - no
94. Dressed sexy for no reason. - if by sexy you mean pirate and no reason you mean pirates rock then yes. constantly
95. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye - Baby, let's get it on
96. Kissed in the rain - Yes!
97. Played in the mud - Yes!
98. Played in the rain - Yes!
99. Gone to a drive-in theater - Yes!
100. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it... - this doesn't make sense. Of course not. If I should regret something, I would, presumably.
101. Visited the Great Wall of China - No
102. Fell in love with a job that has nothing to do with the degree you're pursuing. - oh yeah all the time
103. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog. - well not in a bad way but it can be sort of weird the people who read this thing
104. Dropped Windows in favor of something better. - Well sort of...Knoppix is better in some ways, but I still can't install anything, which is hard to live with
105. Started a business. - Lemonade, garage sales, you name it
106. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken. - Yes!
107. Toured ancient sites around the Mediterranean - No!
108. Taken karate. - No!
109. Swordfought for the honor of a woman. - yes. well, no, but i would.
110. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight. - Oh sure many times
111. Gotten married - Everybody is married to everybody, and I demand they act appropriately
112. Been in a movie. - I've graced the silver screen, yeah
113. LARPed - LA RP?
114. Loved someone you shouldn't have. - i don't believe in "shouldn't have"
115. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy. - i will. (she has)
116. Gotten divorced - no
117. Had sex at the office - no
118. Surprised yourself with a talent you didn't know you had - One day I could juggle
119. Been to Macchu Picchu - I don't believe in Macchu Picchu, though I think I did go in the DuckQuest computer game
120. Gone without food for 5 days - No
121. Never left the continental United States. No
122. Made cookies from scratch. - sho thang
123. Won first prize in a costume contest. - the fools will pay
124. Ridden a gondola in Venice. - gonnnDOLA GONDola
125. Gotten a tattoo - I want to on my back suggestions?
126. Got another tattoo the next day because you didn't feel balanced - I want to meet you
127. Find that the texture of some materials can turn you on - Yeah. Skin-material is a big one
128. Rafted the Snake River - No
129. Blazed it up at Burning Man Flipside. - someday
130. Gotten flowers for no reason. - they always have a reason!
131. Masturbated in a public place. - no nor will I
132. Gotten so drunk you don't remember anything. - not that I recall
133. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug. - Nope
134. Traveled the world. - Um well yeah I guess I mean what do you mean?
135. Performed onstage with a famous symphony orchestra. - omg
136.Been to Las Vegas - omg
137. Met Madonna - omg
138. Recorded music - In a sense
139. Eaten Shark - Yeah
140. Had a one night stand - I don't think this one's too likely
141. Gone to Thailand - My Mom used to live there, and I used to live in her, so sort of!
142. Courage to speak my mind - Yeah
143. Saw Robert Smith and Siouxsie live - banned from the Roxy! OKAY!
144. Bought a house - Nope
145. Earned my degree - I got a high school one, but it's pretty dubious that I deserved it
146. Broke my neck - Nope
147. Been in a combat zone - Nope
148. Buried my father - Nope
149. Earned a *living* through my creativity - Yeah that sounds nice
150. Visit the remaining continents on my list - what?
151. Took more than a month long vacation from a job. - In a sense, I'm doing that right now, except I was fired
152. Gotten so stoned, the fabric of the universe becomes visable. - Believe it or not I can see the fabric of the universe right now, I'm typing on bits of it
153. Moved 2000 miles away from 'home' and never moved back. - Nope
154. Move to a foreign country to live. - no country is foreign if you are a child of the earth. and no anyway
155. Learn to fly an airplane/ helicopter. - How hard could it be?
156. "Win" a fistfight - Yeah Argy is a pansy
157. Go horseback riding in the rain - there was the time I had to rescue my love from Ulysses S. Grant
158. Brag about your prowess in a geek activity - omg Alex u r0x0r
159. Earn an advanced degree - I once managed to bend all the way to 220 degrees
160. Play to a live audience - Yeah, a few piano recitals
161. Rescued a pet from the pound. - Nope
162. Created a piece of art for someone - I like writing poems. For Argy's birthday I made a card that had a l33t Jesus and a poem that went

Jesus, Allah, Yahweh too
Wish today to wish to you
Happy Birthday Argy-poo!
We at least believe in you

I realise Argy-poo is a nickname no man should call another man, but when a man needs a rhyme he'll go to desperate measures
163. Signed with a record label - the fools will pay
164. Touched a giraffe. - Yep. they're pretty snotty
165. loved someone from afar - Yes!
166. gotten the role you've always wanted - I was Charlie Brown!
167. been whitewater rafting - omg
168. dyed your hair green - In 3rd grade I did this for St. Pat's
169. gotten published - Yep
170. sprouted wings - yeah but I couldn't fit through doors so I desprouted.
171. Dress the part - Yes
172. Lie to a complete stranger about absolutely everything for absolutely no reason. - sadly I have not
173. Make an outfit out of duct tape. - No this is a con propagated by the duct tape industry
174. Changed a dream while still dreaming it. - Yes!
175. Drank tequila in Mexico. - Nope
12:48 AM

Rumi!

I just read Rumi all the way through which I had hitherto not done, teasing myself with a poem or a pretty picture at a time. crescendo now though and I have not been this high in ages, or at least months.

there are people who look at how much I read and think this a fine thing indeed. what they do not realise is that reading is my vice, that I'm trapped in a maze of words and can't find my way out. I'm not calm because I'm in tune with the world, I'm calm because I'm so far removed from it, because I think with my head and not with my heart-except now, and now and again when I find some words that point the way out for at least a little while.

I am in love with the world! I want to do so many things. I want to start my own science, my own language, to write odes that are utterly undecipherable to things no one cares about. aluminum foil is prettier a diamond. everything is bouncing and everything loves me and I love them.

let the world die let us all die. we could not live without tedium-if the world felt as I did, if there was a Church Of The Catholic Orgasm and everybody realised they were a member nothing would get done-we would dance and sing and poetrate and gyrate and nobody would be filling out their tax forms or doing their stupid jobs. the world has been on its deathbed for centuries now, let's go like Aldous Huxley and inject some lsd as we do. the joy of armageddon. all the people of all the world holding hands and singing and dying and we'll all go on a big field trip to the pearly gates and when we get there they'll throw us out for being too raucous so we'll start our own heaven and God will leave heaven and join us and together we'll be together.

declare war on all the world and you win. declare peace with all the world and you win. but you can't compromise between these two - pirate or christ, there is no middle ground. they are both noble paths dedicated to subjective living but in between lies right and wrong - those are the two hands cops use to beat you, they use to win.

but they've lost! they can't win! all the judges and cops and bureaucrats and priests and their ilk in the world can't stop an individual who has deviduated, a True Human Being, a bodhisattva, a saint. their honey is sour and their sticks are empty. over us they hold no sway.

alas I am only temporarily autonomous. but that's all I can be. even now I feel myself falling back to sleep, it's hard to stay that awake, that real, that in the moment. listen to your own breath. I have read millions of words but I can not remember one breath I took while doing so. your breath is God talking. all the answers are there if you listen.


love,
Alex
3:34 PM

I have to pack so I'm just going to do a quick list of things

1) I lost my hippy job, wasn't making standard. Sad, but I'll get another hippy job in a week or so, and it gave me time to play lots of 2) Viewtiful Joe, which is easily the best game ever in all the universe. Sadly I had to return it today because I'm 3) going to Seattle tomorrow. Have to drive up to Houston to do so, sadly, 4) my car is totally dead. I'm going to donate it to the SPCA. So right now I get to 5) take a 4 hour bus ride to Houston. All in all I'm 6) going to be spending about thirty hours over the next week in transit (4 hours to Houston, at least 6 to Seattle, 8 to Idaho to see my Samia, 8 back, 6 back, 3 back...35. sigh). To this end, 7) my reading list is 10 books long. Hopefully I can get a few of those finished. I just 8) finished the Artemis Fowl series, and those were terrific.

So that more or less sums up recent events. Wish I had time for a more comprehensive update, perhaps with vague ruminations and half thought out rants, but I have to go ride the bus for hours and hours.
3:40 PM